Tears flooded down my face when you turned around the other way

“Dont walk away, don’t give up, please.” I wanted to scream

Why didn’t you keep fighting

Why do you have to be so weak

For years you were this happy, strong, beautiful, confident girl

Heads turned when you walked in a room

When you smiled, your perfect pearly white teeth blinded everyone

You managed to fool everyone, but me

I knew it was all an act

At school you pretended to not care what people thought or said to you

But I knew it got to you because I saw you.

I saw you throwing up every night

I saw those bald patches from bleaching your brown hair

I saw you putting in those blue contacts

I saw right through you,

There was a massive hole in your heart.

You tried so hard to be perfect so everyone would praise you

Did you really think those superficial compliments would fill up that hole?

Darkness consumed you

“I can’t do this anymore” you repeated in your head

If only you knew you mattered, that people cared about you

But it’s too late now…

I stepped away from the mirror and those were my last would ever speak.

The person who let me down was myself. I was the one who pretended to be someone I wasn’t. I pretending to be ok when I was secretly crying out for help. Every breath I took, I was praying it would be my last. I didn’t keep fighting. I let myself down and let the demons inside my head win.