Lights on A porcelain white cloaks my walls And it seems to conjure up the purity of life There’s nothing in the room so far A tan four-legged table for sure to keep things standing And a black vase that seems to keep a yellow chrysanthemum prisoner Is it a source of disturbance? Prediction, maybe? They think I'm going insane Little do they know that there’s still a flame of sanity burning brightly before I do No one knows for sure what they see in me They think they can beseech a diagnosis out of me, and it makes me sick Afterward, a sudden wave of lies follow My heart remains to be made of glowing gold It can be pounded with a tool out of hate and desire to shape any ugly thing Until all that remains is something small or unrecognizable They trapped me in here with influences of joy and hope so I could ignore the discontent that resides in my mind But they don’t want to realize the truth so, shield me From the coats of lies like the polish on the floors Brace yourself from a dire stigma that takes form of a girl Because the truth is I’m an experiment Gone wrong of course, but you already knew what happens to experiments They need to be eliminated but not yet I had to be scrubbed away of any hope drain me of a brisk healthy Take-charge of this ball of fire transform me into a new and refreshing blur of wicked Disillusionize me from any reassurance bleed me dry from any humanity that’s itching to stay Obliterate me from the care in my salty tears fulfill me with chagrin Trap me in a room with a midnight black vase and a bright yellow flower And let me fathom a beautiful sight of death with silence The vase is the gun the flower a bullet that I couldn’t dodge It pierced my heart tainted my life They placed me in another room before this everything opposite of the one after it It was a jet black that covered the walls, and only A white vase, but no flower instead Just the petals that are too faded to tell what color resided before it And cast an ugly brown instead Crinkled and dwindled of life Like I thought was going to be me in the future Its too fortunate that flowers die faster that humans I was kept in that room Only the obsidian walls were dead on when it came to outlining my tarnished heart Black traced it like a border, not fully interfering yet Lights off There wasn’t a sudden stop of footsteps that was supposed to be my rescue under the door I’m lost in limbo it became too much for me to handle Finally, the depravity that has waited so long took control of my heart No border to separate the good and bad I should have known that it was sullied at the beginning, that it was a cancer that I was too blind to see Lights on It annihilated me but it was relieving me of my sorrows No more tears wide eyes of curiosity as I stare at an art of obscurity Metamorphose me from a girl to a doormat stain me with mud after a hard day Control me until I’m someone else’s burden are you tired of me yet? Erase any empathy you have for me block out any noises you hear Look me in the eye and tell me when they’re going to waste my last moments with words Or don’t Surprise me with a spur of the moment make me mortified with my mistakes I get off on it the darkness Know who I am comprehend that I’m not like the others who failed as well Trounce me by making me look at an image of beautiful death attempt to subdue me Create an endeavor to evoke any bad emotion from me don’t let me stay in this ill-starred life Let me shiver of my shame as I wonder of my own freedom Make me stare at a lovely death in the eye plague my head with pretty thoughts My body is weak I feel faint Let me flash a fake smile ponder about what comes after this Fade away from the world slowly with an audience on the edge of their seats As I whisper goodbye my eyes blinking and reopening slowly I’m full of pixels the flower is still there but being blacked out quickly I'm disintegrating from the world hastily breath by breath I fell to the ground a loud landing followed I’m sorry I couldn’t do it I loved being a subject of evil too much The flame was blown out in a rush so I guess Lights off