I drown in my tears, As I try to release my fears. I drown in my sorrow, And hope I feel some joy tomorrow. I feel at the lowest of my existence. Happiness on occasion, And then resistance. I see magic in life that's so incredible! And yet, this darkness inside seems unshakeable. I look around out in the world and can't believe the beauty! However, beauty in myself, I cannot see. The hope things will get better becomes less and less. How much more can I handle of this significant stress? Pessimistic, some that speculate may say. But following my heart and soul have always been my way. I don't feel quite ready to give up yet. I'm afraid of what's to come though, and until I know I shall fret.