I’m gone. I’m long gone. It may seem like I’m here but I’m sure as hell not. I’ve been stripped down to the very last thread of happiness that has kept me strung together… And you were the one who unraveled me. You left. You’re gone. Therefore, I’m gone, too. But everything doesn’t just end, it fades away. A car has to slow down before it can stop. To avoid an accident. To avoid a vicious collision that can affect the lives of who were involved And can even end the life of one. Well, my brakes aren’t working. I’ve lost control of the wheel. I’m swerving and skidding my way down the road we both shared. But your brakes work fine. You stopped with ease, unaware of the wreck you caused… They say your life flashes before your eyes. First steps. Flash. School. Flash. Birthdays. Flash. Smiles, laughs, and pleasant memories before… Flash… Nothing. Why doesn’t my life flash before my eyes? Why don’t my happy memories appear one last time before the bright, white light takes over my mind, body, and soul? Mine fades away slowly and painfully to blackness. Every smile taken away from me. Every moment I had, erased from my memory. Our smiles Our moments Our memories Disappearing one by one, leaving nothing but a deep, nasty scar. Your jacket, that once gave me warmth, a comfortable, safe feeling, ripped off violently by sharp, long claws on a black raven. It’s blood-red eyes glowing in the night as it strips me from your warmth and carries it away with its dark, velvety feathered wings until it disappears… leaving me cold, scared, and alone… Vulnerable. Your soft pink lips, with their familiar cherry taste, leaving the groove of mine, which used to fit with yours like two pieces of a puzzle that were made to be connected. The taste of your lips linger on mine but soon the tingling sensation is gone. Your kiss erased from my memory as my once again virgin lips forget your gentle touch… Numb. Your firm shoulders, equal to my pillow, completely vanishing from underneath my head as I fall over onto the floor. The cold floor, alone, in the corner of a room with no lights, no windows, or doors… Trapped. Vulnerable Numb Trapped Is this was it feels like? Is this what the white light is supposed to feel like? Is this the feeling I’ve been waiting for? Or is this the darker evil, scrapping its knees on its way up from the fiery, brutal underworld, leaving a bloody trail for me to follow? The red color stains the cold floor that I’m sitting on. It glows against the blackness surrounding me. Yet, in the top corner of my eye, I can see a shimmer of hope. A ray of that white light trying to reach out for me…but I’m already too far down the trail I was forced to walk down… I’m gone. I’m long gone. And you can’t stop me. So stop acting like you’re still my shining light. Stop drawing me closer to you…because you were the one who sent me down into the darkness in the first place. Thanks for the memories. You can have them back now. Seems like I won’t be needing them. Now do it. Unravel my last string. Untie it. Cut It. It’s the only thing I have left for you to take. Cut my goddamn safety rope and watch me fall in the darkness Holding the brakes I ripped out of my car for you. Holding my heart that I ripped out for you. Watch what’s left of me go. You don’t want me here anyway… But that’s okay. I don’t either.