I don't want to die I just don't want to live, 'Cause I made much more mistakes, than you can forgive. Death means taking those little things that make me happy, in a word where everything is soulles sorrow. I don't want to die, There's so many things I want to try, So many people i don't want to leave, But I don't want to survive only live. I don't want to live, I want my leaving soul to rip my heart my mind and brain. I want my bodys lock to open, So that all the sorrow takes my hope in life. I don't want to die, I just don't want to live. Maybe thats why I run in to daydreams from this mysery. Maybe destiny chose me to bear all this pain. Maybe some day life makes up for all the lost fantasies. But will I be able to survive so I can heal, Maybe I can realize happyness is real. Until then leave me be, let me drown in peace. Let me wonder away in those daydreams.