Living life in the wrong way Just living life day by day, Using meth in order to survive Thinking it was keeping me alive, Slowly it was taking my life The pain I felt, cut like a knife, Letting go was something hard for me I didn't want to set that life free, Living life in the fast lane Caused my structured life nothing but pain, All the destruction this addiction has done The misery wasn't worth all the fun, Looking back it wasn't fun at all Paranoia was fear of the law, The life of insanity was the way I lived I didn't seem to care what I did, God's world outside was falling apart Nothing mattered without love in my heart, Morals and values meant nothing anymore Not caring what the future had in store, My children and family meant nothing to me My heart so cold, I was to blind to see, Honesty wasn't a word in my book It really didn't matter what or who I took, Responsibilities weren't priority anymore Not even my children did I seem to adore, I wasn't willing to try and stay clean I stopped praying for the courage to try new things, I finally realized to surrender to God above To do his will with the guidance of love, To have the strength to carry on Because everything I had was gone, People, places and things I had to let go I was tired of living life so low, With the guidance of God in my heart I can learn to live a new life with a new start!