since you died. I offered myself a thousand lie I am losing my mind when I realise was it real? should I probably cry? no right answer could leave me satisfied I've lost for sure, there is no reason to hide I opened up my arms and reached up for the sky I am choking, my words won't turn into a pray no my words didn't reach the heavens' door could I climb the highest mountain so I can reach out for the sky? to open heavens' door and let my prayers go inside? or should I pick you up and bring you back to life? Tell me I am confused, I am so lost inside there's no words left to say, I just can't decide wish I could bring you back, but I can't deny that I don't want to sacrifice the happiness you may be living on the other side. I could just leave you to rest wherever you lay.