why do i so crave the darkness
where monsters and demons hide
where pain and anguish fester, putrefy
the light confuses me, overwhelms
its warmth and purity burn my soul
for i was born, and have lived, only in bitter cold
happiness and joy are rumors and fairytales
tempting me with the illusion of hope
oh how i would love for them to be real
to leave this nightmare and find sanctuary
some call it heaven, others call it love
I just don't know
I'm afraid to leave this place
to most likely chase what is a myth
this lonely hell isn't home
it's just all i've ever known