I so want to express how I feel Yet how is it when I try The words don't seem to come out Its like a turbulence of feelings Of emotions all clouded up Its like im drowning in a cup of water Spinning and churning Overwhelmed in my own doubt In thoughts and assumptions Tying my own noose My hands at my neck They lead to anger and weakness Chaos and my own Demise The anxiety increases As the emotions build up inside Release is needed Contemplation and actions best left aside A breather a chance catch my breath To get this heavy knot and feeling out of my chest I get lost in my own mind The outcomes is rarely fine I need to stop acting Listening to my mind The voices and the words The hateful and the judging I need to feel the love The love that's inside The power and the magic The blood in my veins Alive, Alive, I need to feel Alive Cold and Dead needs to be put aside My eyes turn to daggers The all seeing kind Sharp like a blade They can cut like a knife Sometimes I feel so dead I feel ghost like Only half alive, Zombie, petrified I need to flip the switch I need to snap out of it Back to reality back to the clan Form the coven and not forget who I am Bind all the ties I need to combine the three I need to open my eyes Revive my heart Get back my breath that was stolen from me Undead and Resurrected Balanced and Gifted Blessed beyond Belief I need to hold onto my Spirituality Shine the light that was given to me Share the knowledge the higher bestowed upon thee More than a dream Reality at the seems The veil will be lifted For the dawning of a new Reality