I cry and break down a lot I lie and say I'm okay when I'm really not I reminisce and look at my wrist at all the scars I've got When you took my mother at 10 months the heartache started God bless the souls of ALL the dearly departed Please tell me is my child up there? You taking her still doesn't seem fair I get depressed and won't come out for days God forgive me for my vengeful ways Daddy beat me I blamed myself The pills and therapy, I tried to get some help Ended putting my heart back on the shelf Violated and Raped in my own home No family so I'm use to being alone I tried to make it right and take my life But I guess you said the time just wasn't right So I tried not to lose my mind I think true love is just too hard to find People pretend to care They talk but I'm not really there So stressed out I'm really losing hair Another crying spell This is a living hell Try chasing a check while fighting your demons Been begging you to give my life some meaning The pain had me addicted to sipping and leaning Why does life feel like it's been rehearsed? Live to die to be put in a hurse? Lord My soul hurts Once upon a time I wore my heart on my shirt I'm not innocent I have done my dirt I was the black sheep I was mischief If you take me now I wouldn't miss this Hole in my heart Lord help me fix it Another panic attack, another crying spell God Why does my life on Earth feel like a living hell?